Today, a friend of mine whose life is very similar to mine lost her husband suddenly. She and her husband are the same ages as Jeff and I and have a precious little boy who they were blessed with through adoption who is just a couple of months younger than T.J. My heart aches for her!! It happened early this morning, and all day I have just felt sick with hurt for my sweet friend.
When I got home, I could not wait to give Jeff a big hug. Instead of feeling too exhausted after a long day to cook, I just kept thinking how badly Kami must long to be cooking a dinner for her family, and cleaning up the kitchen with hers and her husband's dishes. Instead of thinking about all the things I have to do to prepare for going out of town this weekend, I thought how fortunate I am to be packing for Jeff, T.J., and I to be going to spend some time together with our family this weekend. Rather than stressing about the last of the adoption paperwork that I need to have finished and the house I have to have clean before our home inspection on Friday, I feel ecstatic that we are all working so hard together preparing to add to our family. As Jeff and I put T.J. to bed, I thought how incredibly lucky I am to have all I have ever wished for!! When I think about what she must be going through right now - the sadness, the loneliness, the complete and utter feeling of loss - I realize how quickly things can be taken away and how we need to treasure every single moment! I love my boys more than words can say and pray that I will remember that when I get overwhelmed by what life entails. I am so lucky!!
